Over three months ago, I had a yard accident where I banged a piece of metal with a mallet to fix my garage door. Although I successfully made the fix, I didn't anticipate the destructive sound shockwave that would follow, which has pretty much destroyed my right ear, and by extension my sanity. I later got a level reading by recreating the gong (this time with hearing protection), it read 100.4db - no wonder my ear is now broken.
Ever since then, my right ear has been ringing like crazy, and it's easily exacerbated by even moderate levels of noise, forcing me to watch movies and TV shows with closed captions and subtitles because I just can't bear the sound. Film scores hurt me too. It causes me agony.
And now I hear ringing and whooshing across my brain. It gets louder when exposed to sound.
I finally have my scheduled visit to the ENT tomorrow to see if this might be resolved, but I'm not counting on it since there's no cure and by all accounts, people afflicted with this kind of acoustic trauma usually suffer from its effects forever. And by forever, I mean I may have to suffer with it for the next five decades of my natural life.
Not unless I kill myself first though. That might be the only cure available to me.