What is your addiction?

[filmmusic 3,205]

The internet!

Since I don't have any friends (not that I'm bothered by this in any way), I stay all day in front of the pc (when I don't go to work and the gym) and surf.

The thing is, I don't even sleep very much due to this. I may sleep 4-5 hours at the most.

Even if I sleep relatively early (eg. at 00.00), I get up at 4.30-5.00 in the morning and go to the pc again!

Even in days that I don't have work, I get up early and go to the pc.

Maybe I need help? I don't know..

 

So, what's your story?

[#SnowyVernalSpringsEternal 12,173]

Pot, alcoholic drink.

[filmmusic 3,205]

16 minutes ago, #SnowyVernalSpringsEternal said:

Pot

 Really?

[Xander Harris 9,546]

I've gone in the opposite direction with The Net. I'm on it less and less. I can't even find anything to entertain me anymore. My YouTube and Instagram feeds have totally deteriorated. There's just nothing to do on it.

 

I also don't really have any friends. Okay, that's not true, but it's sort of true. Let's face it. Nobody can stand my ass. People within my own family plot to hurt me. Literally, as the kids are saying these days. And let's face it. At the end of the day, I'm not going out socializing. I don't want to hang out 99% of the time. I'd rather be watching Buffy alone, pretending like I have better friends from a TV show.

[filmmusic 3,205]

That's interesting @Xander Harris!

So, how do you spend your day if you haven't got many friends, you don't go out, and you don't surf on the net?

Watching movies/TV series? 

8 minutes ago, Xander Harris said:

People within my own family plot to hurt me. Literally, as the kids are saying these days.

I don't understand if this is a joke, or not... 

[Xander Harris 9,546]

Well, all I do is work.

[filmmusic 3,205]

2 minutes ago, Xander Harris said:

Well, all I do is work.

Oh, you have a work that keeps you occupied all day?

If you love it, that's good!

If you don't, that's bad!

[Naïve Old Fart 12,881]

I used to be a heroin addict, now I'm a methadone addict.

[filmmusic 3,205]

3 minutes ago, Naïve Old Fart said:

I used to be a heroin addict, now I'm a methadone addict.

Ok, now I know you're kidding!

[Bespin Copilot 10,731]

Alcohol and music are my only addictions; beyond that, I’m nearly perfect!

[filmmusic 3,205]

Just now, Bespin Copilot said:

Alcohol and music are my only addictions; beyond that, I’m nearly perfect!

Can you please elaborate on that if you'd like?

For example, you get drunk often, or you don't reach that stage?

Also, how music is an addiction?

You're listening to a lot of it during the day? Doing nothing or you do other things simultaneously?

[Bespin Copilot 10,731]

I’m never drunk! 
 

And I only drink after work hours, so about 4 PM, some wine at dinner and that's it. I think that alone disqualifies me from being an alcoholic. I know people who start drinking at 10 AM. I only do that when I’m on vacation.

I'm like JR in Dallas, but gay, not USian, and without a cowboy hat. 

 

As for music, I listen to it pretty much all day while I’m working and managing all my Facebook pages (Aznavour, John Williams, Patof).

[filmmusic 3,205]

33 minutes ago, Bespin Copilot said:

I’m never drunk! 
 

And I only drink after work hours, so about 4 PM, some wine at dinner and that's it. I think that alone disqualifies me from being an alcoholic.

Well, then I wouldn't really call it an addiction, but maybe you know better, I don't know..

[Bespin Copilot 10,731]

My addictions are under control; unfortunately, I’m just built that way!

[Andy 7,543]

5 hours ago, #SnowyVernalSpringsEternal said:

Pot, alcoholic drink.

I REALLY want to try pot, but I’m afraid  to. Not only did my parents and drug PSA advertisements of the 80s work on me, but I’m prone to panic attacks and take medication for them.  So I’m scared that the marijuana would have an adverse or potentially lethal effect. 
 

It’s a shame too, because I’d really love to try it and listen to music or watch movies stoned.  And I wonder if I went off the medication and self medicated with cannabis if I wouldn’t mellow out across the board. 

[Xander Harris 9,546]

The two times I tried pot made feel like I was falling and I couldn’t stop. It was awful.

 

I fell forever.

[filmmusic 3,205]

Sorry, I haven't understood.

Is pot illegal or not?

 

[Xander Harris 9,546]

What if the Jitz is monitoring?

[Andy 7,543]

1 hour ago, filmmusic said:

Sorry, I haven't understood.

Is pot illegal or not?

 

It’s not legal at the federal level in the United States, but some individual States have legalized it.   

[Edmilson 12,208]

I once had one of the worst possible addictions. It wasn't alcohol, nor illegal drugs, prescriptions, gambling. It wasn't one of those modern addictions like social media or video games.

 

And it ended really, really poorly, six years ago. It was catastrophic, with effects to this very day.

 

It's a bit of a personal story. But it has a quirky side: it is sorta related to... Star Wars! 

 

Yes, really.

[Rachael Foley 10,021]

Women?/A Woman?

[#SnowyVernalSpringsEternal 12,173]

8 hours ago, filmmusic said:

Sorry, I haven't understood.

Is pot illegal or not?

 

 

In The Netherlands marijuana isnt legal, but its been decriminalised

[Jill Sandwich 11,030]

Flatulence. 

[#SnowyVernalSpringsEternal 12,173]

9 hours ago, Xander Harris said:

What if the Jitz is monitoring?

 

No way po po knows who Xander Harris is!

[Naïve Old Fart 12,881]

13 hours ago, filmmusic said:

Ok, now I know you're kidding!

It's a line from ANNIE HALL, spoken by a little girl (you really need to watch the film to get the context ).

[BloodBoal 8,522]

15 hours ago, Andy said:

I REALLY want to try pot, but I’m afraid to.

 

Better watch this before you do anything stupid.

 

[Quintus 6,319]

18 hours ago, Xander Harris said:

I've gone in the opposite direction with The Net. I'm on it less and less. I can't even find anything to entertain me anymore. My YouTube and Instagram feeds have totally deteriorated. There's just nothing to do on it.

 

I also don't really have any friends. Okay, that's not true, but it's sort of true. Let's face it. Nobody can stand my ass. People within my own family plot to hurt me. Literally, as the kids are saying these days. And let's face it. At the end of the day, I'm not going out socializing. I don't want to hang out 99% of the time. I'd rather be watching Buffy alone, pretending like I have better friends from a TV show.

 

If it weren't for your politics I reckon I'd have got on great with you in real life.

[filmmusic 3,205]

15 hours ago, Andy said:

I REALLY want to try pot, but I’m afraid  to.

Why would you like to try to?

I don't know, I've always been away from substances and drugs (except the prescribed drugs of course by a doctor), and I cannot understand why people want to start them in the first place, when they know they do more harm than good. 

 

[Andy 7,543]

Reasons I want to try pot? I don’t know, let’s see:

 

Steef does it.
Willie Nelson looks like he loves life. 
I want to experience film and music through a different lens. 
 In my friend circle, I was the only kid in college who said no.  
I’m a bit high strung and could stand to chill out, especially as I age. 
My family/siblings joke about it a lot, because it was forbidden and now it isn’t.  The stigma has been removed. 
 

And

 

The Next business over from my work is a gigantic medicinal marijuana growing facility and dispensary.  We’re talking highly regulated, top grade quality stuff.  Not crap you get from a junk dealer. All different strains. All different forms: gummies, creams, chocolates, powders, etc.  We got to know the workers and they gave us a top to bottom tour. Got to see the enormous nurseries and greenhouses, the bakery facilities, the packing plant… everything but the retail counter. It was really, really interesting.  Boy did my clothes reek coming home that day. 
 

Sadly, they closed because they can’t compete with all the cheap unregulated corner stores.  They still grow it on site, but they don’t sell it there. 
 

So yeah I’m just so curious.  Not saying I want to be habitual, but then again I look at my parents who are John Williams’ age and the health problems and pains they have and wonder if they could be happier with some recreational or medicinal cannabis use. 

[#SnowyVernalSpringsEternal 12,173]

5 minutes ago, Andy said:

Steef does it.

 

I only use it for medicinal purposes.

[Andy 7,543]

[Jill Sandwich 11,030]

You weed heads never gotten high off your own methane?

[filmmusic 3,205]

1 hour ago, Andy said:

Willie Nelson looks like he loves life. 

I didn't even know who that is.

I see he was in Thief, which I watched just very recently.

[Andy 7,543]

[Naïve Old Fart 12,881]

Is that the guy who plays Filch?

[Xander Harris 9,546]

4 hours ago, Jim said:

 

If it weren't for your politics I reckon I'd have got on great with you in real life.

I’m constantly personified as being some sort of extremist when politically I’m pretty common sense and even quite detached these days. Better that way.

[#SnowyVernalSpringsEternal 12,173]

Years of Facebook Messenger though!

 

Lee has an informed opinion of your online persona.

[BloodBoal 8,522]

7 minutes ago, Xander Harris said:

I’m constantly personified as being some sort of extremist when politically I’m pretty common sense and even quite detached these days.

 

How do you define common sense? These days, it is pretty hard to say what such a term encompasses...

[Xander Harris 9,546]

I like Ike

[Bespin Copilot 10,731]

6 minutes ago, Xander Harris said:

I’m constantly personified as being some sort of extremist when politically I’m pretty common sense and even quite detached these days. Better that way.

Not an extremist?

[#SnowyVernalSpringsEternal 12,173]

And Buffy and Titanic.

[Mr. Hooper 8,623]

13 hours ago, Edmilson said:

I once had one of the worst possible addictions. It wasn't alcohol, nor illegal drugs, prescriptions, gambling. It wasn't one of those modern addictions like social media or video games.

 

And it ended really, really poorly, six years ago. It was catastrophic, with effects to this very day.

 

It's a bit of a personal story. But it has a quirky side: it is sorta related to... Star Wars! 

 

Yes, really.

You didn't mention porn, so I'll say Star Wars porn.

 

 

Final answer, Regis. 

 

 

[Bespin Copilot 10,731]

I prefer this version!
 

Spoiler

 

[Mr. Hooper 8,623]

16 minutes ago, Bespin Copilot said:

I prefer this version!
 

  Hide contents

 

Using their elegant weapons in elegant ways, I'm sure. 

[BloodBoal 8,522]

Mattris was not lying when he said Episode X had already been filmed.

[Bespin Copilot 10,731]

6 minutes ago, BloodBoal said:

Mattris was not lying when he said Episode X had already been filmed.

 

Who's your daddy?

[Edmilson 12,208]

27 minutes ago, Mr. Hooper said:

You didn't mention porn, so I'll say Star Wars porn.

 

 

Final answer, Regis. 

 

 

Star Warsexual 

 

But no. The thing is, for the most part of the last decade, I was emotionally dependent of a person. I was actually addicted to that person, which both is a metaphor and not. I felt bad, sometimes physically, when something happened that prevented us to meet.

 

Now, this description might conjur images of pathetic people who crawl begging for attention of their objects of obsession (like Smithers and Mr Burns), or villainous creeps and stalkers (like in the Netflix shows "You" and "Baby Reindeer").

 

But in reality, for the most part, the only one who was hurt by it was me. For the person and our families, I was actually a nice guy who acted as a great partner.

 

But, on the inside, I felt like life was only worth it by her side. We did everything together, we had an awesome group of friends. It's like by that person's side, everything felt a lot better. And in contrast, everything that I did by myself was just boring, dull, tedious, dismal.

 

It's like in that episode of The Simpsons when Homer tries to go sober. He goes to a football game where everyone in the audience is drunk, and he's like "this game is so boring without alcohol".

 

But then, a few months before the pandemic, we had a fight, it became painfully apparent how emotionally dependent I was of their company, and they cut all contact with me.

 

You can imagine how horrible it feels to be totally dependent on a drug and then suddenly it gets taken away from you. So I was in a really, really, really awful state by the final days of 2019 and the beginning of 2020.

 

To make matters even worse, we faced two deaths in the family (unrelated to that case) during that same time.

 

So yeah, it was crap. And it was crap for a long time since then. Only, like, two years ago I've started to forget about it (these days, I'm clean, and have no problem talking about it).

 

But what does all of that sad story has to do with Star Wars? Well, what Star Wars movie was being released in theaters by the end of 2019?

 

We were planning on watching that movie together at the opening day (back when we expected it to be good). It was going to be such an epic day, not because of the movie, but anyway. But then, we had our falling out, and on the day we had planned to see it, we had a big fight. It was messy, shameful and awful, one of the worst days of my life. 

 

Weirdly, the fact that that movie is so terrible makes me feel a little better about that terrible day. Had it been good I could've felt like we lost an even more amazing day together because of my mistakes. But since it was awful, well, at least I can make fun of it.

 

Still, that movie is so connected to such a horrible period in my life that... I can't even think about it. I can't watch it, can't listen to the John Williams score, can't laugh at the Palpatine memes. I can't even type its name. It's not like it causes PTSD, more like I fear that if I do it I'll feel the same frustration... It's been diagonsed as OCD.

 

So yeah... That's it.

[Bespin Copilot 10,731]

So you linked one of the sadest episode of your life with... Star Wars.

[BloodBoal 8,522]

Sorry to hear that, Edmilson. I hope things will get better for you in the future.

 

And remember: while you can't watch Star Wars, you can still watch The Lord Of The Rings, and that is a comforting thought.

[Edmilson 12,208]

18 minutes ago, Bespin Copilot said:

So you linked one of the sadest episode of your life with... Star Wars.

Yeah... We were supposed to watch the so called finale of the Skywalker Saga together in theaters, but then we had our falling out. Mind you, Star Wars had been with us since the beginning - it was because of me that they started watching the franchise (with Episodes IV, V and VI, which is the correct way ).

 

Anyway, it was sad, but it's in the past now, and with the benefit of the hindsight, I came to see it less like a tragedy and more like a necessary shakedown that, through a long and painful way, put me in a more peaceful state of mind and made me a better person. I hope the other feels that way too.

 

16 minutes ago, BloodBoal said:

Sorry to hear that, Edmilson. I hope things will get better for you in the future.

 

And remember: while you can't watch Star Wars, you can still watch The Lord Of The Rings, and that is a comforting thought.

Much better! 

 

But it's not all of Star Wars, though. Just that movie that came out in 2019. And, through some other circunstances, the previous J.J. Abrams directed Star Wars movie from 2015 as well.

 

It's fine, it's not like I'm missing any cinematic masterpiece, especially with the 2019. But I do miss listening to the JW scores though...